The Funk

I hesitated writing this blog post because it is a bit of a downer, but I'm hoping it will contribute to some perspective down the road, when I'm sure things will be better...

But I'm in a funk.

It is identical to the funk I went through shortly after we moved to Baton Rouge. When we moved to Baton Rouge a little over two years ago, after we had settled in, I did a lot of these kinds of things:

--thinking, "Oh my gosh - we've really MOVED here. We aren't just visiting! What have we done?" (You would think that fact would be pretty apparent, but I liken it to that realization, a few days after bringing a new baby home, that you aren't just babysitting that baby, but but the baby is there to STAY. FOREVER.)

--looking at photos and reminiscing about all the great times we had in the place we just moved from (who doesn't like to romanticize the past and forget all the not-so-great times?)

--feeling disconnected and isolated from everyone in the place I just moved to and wondering if/when I will ever feel connected again - it's a bit lonely, to tell the truth (To clarify: No one is to blame for this. Summer is kind of a crummy time to move to a new place because people are busy, on vacation, doing their own thing, etc. But still...LONELY.)

The good news is (I think, I hope) that the funk is temporary...at least it was two years ago. I distinctly remember sitting in Amelia's classroom at her then-new school, listening to her teacher talk about the plans for the year, and I just had this feeling of "Whew. Everything will be okay." And as we settled into routine - Amelia started school and I started teaching, and friendships were formed and cultivated - the funk was gone. I have a feeling that after we get into our routine here, and that will be very soon, the funk will disappear once again. Fingers crossed!

The funk has set in a bit heavily this week. I've had a bit of a pity party for one. Actually...maybe it has been for two because I think Amelia misses her friends as well. This is technically my last full week of summer before all the workshops, new employee training, and preplanning begin (!), so we've been doing some fun things to fight the funk.

Like eating ice cream with sprinkles...